Spencer, I truly understand why you feel the way you do, and I hate all of this. One of the things that attracted me to this breed and to the ABC was the camaraderie and respect among the breeders, many who had been working together for over 30 years. I was always impressed at the lack of drama and how well everyone cooperated for the good of the breed, and it was heartbreaking to see this begin to change several years back. Both sides have different stories and different opinions on who is to blame, but from my perspective: if something works well for a very long time then suddenly doesn't, it's unlikely the reason for the failure has been present and lying dormant the entire time, and far more likely that the problem was introduced more recently.
I hope you change your mind, we'd sure hate to lose you, but either way I wish you all the best and hope that you are able to find joy in your birds again. The events of the last two years have taken the joy out of this for a lot of people, and that's a darn shame...